absolutspacegrl's blog

Whew!  The JSC Tweetup is over & I've finally had some time to sit down and collect my thoughts. 

It's been a very hectic week, from working STS-130 to the Tweetup to managing to squeeze in a few world domination discussions with @flyingjenny since she was at my house, there wasn't much time to stop and take it all in.

I'm very sorry that I couldn't participate on the tour, but such is life and being a Flight Controller for a few years now I've learned that you really can't plan anything, from vacations to family events to holidays to Tweetups, everything's on hold until wheel stop - and then there's another one!  

For now at least, there's another one.  A few other ones.  Even though I wasn't able to join the actual tour, I was able to attend the events the night before and the night of the Tweetup.  I was very excited to meet everyone who I've been talking to only virtually for almost a year now.  Finally, I get to show you what we do!  

It's almost 1 am. I have an STS-131 sim tomorrow. I need to get to sleep. But I can't stop thinking about everything that happened today and the rumors from last week. I don't post often. I wanted to post last week when the rumors started but I had a bad dream that someone from work saw it and I got in trouble.

No seriously, I didn't make that up. I really had that dream. We'll see how it plays out.

I've had more than a few people ask me how I feel about everything. I feel awful. Maybe it's selfish because I'm worried about my job....maybe this is the best thing for human spaceflight and I just don't know it yet. I acknowledge that may be true. And I'm 100% behind the more people in space, the better. But what will this do for me personally?  I have no idea.

Hi everyone. I've got to commend you on what a great job you're doing, especially @flyingjenny.  You've all made STS grow into what it is today, and it's absolutely amazing.

If you've been following me via Twitter, then you know that my Dad passed away recently.  I'm saying this because he's the reason that I am where I am today - and he followed STS from the beginning.

Just a few months ago, before STS, I had my own blog on another website.  Without getting into details, I was "discouraged" from continuing to post on that site (don't ask because I won't tell), but I always sent my Dad the link and he would pass it along to other family members.  It was a way for them to keep up with what I was doing.

Once I'd started the blog, Dad would always ask - "When are you going to have a new blog! We love to read them!" 

I'm happy now that I saved those emails - him saying how neat he thought the idea was, how he was proud, etc - yet sad that he won't ever get to see what eventually became of it.